My life tends to revolve around my family. I have 2 parents, 5 older sisters, 4 brother-in-laws, and 11 nieces and nephews. I love each and every one of them dearly. However, since I first became an aunt at the age of 9 years old, my life has been turned over to diaper changes, swim meets, dance recitals, cheer competitions, 5th grade graduations, pee wee football games, fort building, PBS kids, and most of all babysitting.
I am also a high school math teacher, which means I have about 160 students each year in my Geometry classes. Students who need attention and care from a teacher because they don't get it at home. Students who want you to talk with them, and sit with them, and eat lunch with them, and sponsor their club, and tutor them, and mentor them, and love them unconditionally.
I am a 23 year old single female, who dedicates her life to the needs, wants, dreams, and desires of children.
Of course there are moments I get to do things for myself, and of course I enjoy giving to my family and students, but this weekend I realized that somewhere along the way I lost some of myself. I've lost some of my adventurism, my optimism, my care freeness, my silliness, my passion. And most important of all, I have lost my JOY for life.
So I am starting this journey. This Journey to Joy. I have made a list of things that I want to improve in my life, and each week I will focus on one of these aspects in order to find myself again. To rediscover what I like and what I don't. To experience new things I've never tried. To connect with my inner child. To be a young adult without a care in the world. To rekindle old dreams and find new ones. To figure out what I want. And to find Joy.
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